Awakened!

  Today, I got a message from one of the best lecturers I have ever had. He reminded me about something. I told him about what made me confused (let's say about life, hmm) and finally I felt relieved. I just need someone to talk to, maybe. And I don't trust anybody about what's in my mind. I mean, I just cannot tell anything to any people. I need someone to trust and then to him/her I can share what's inside my mind. Then, we came up into a conclusion that whether I like it or not, whether I have eagerness or not, it is me, yes me, deciding what I should take, not someone else. Now, I understand that being mature is all about someone's self, no one else's. 

  Okay, I will tell you (whoever read this) about the most important thing that I got from my lecturer. It is related to managerial skill. He stated that there are three main points of importance here. First, personal need for the present. Yup, I really need many things (followed with money for sure) to continue my live here (living alone in other country) and I should be able to manage it. It should be not too little and not too big, for the expenses. Enough is enough. It is quite difficult for women especially when we see SALE or Discount up to 70% in some shops. But, yeah, I will try to manage it. Second, enough care for family. Being away from home and the one to rely on in the family makes me have more responsibility to take care of my family especially economically. I have to be able to decide wisely how much I should send every month. Enough, again. I have dad and mom who are still working (I can be less worried because they can still raise money by themselves) and one sister in senior high school who needs most of the expense in the family. Actually, my parents always say like I can send or not send. They always say that I should cover all my needs here first. Sometimes I see that they are quite worried about my being alone here. Therefore, they don't want to put more burden on me. But as the first child, I feel like I have that responsibility and I will give the best to my family. The last one is care about future. Hmm, talking about future, I have lots of dreams to reach. Those dreams of course need some amount of money. I think I can say everything starts from money. So, I have to save my money for the sake of my future. I want to reach my target (I have it in one amount of money), so I will save money starting from my salary this month. I really want to train myself about that managerial skill. And I will make it fair for those three things. Anyway, the managerial skill is related to my thesis for my bachelor degree actually haha. 

  Last but not least, as what's written in the tittle, I felt I am awaken. I got refreshed about something. I should find the way to reach my dream. And before I can make it come true, I have to train myself to write. Yes, my writing skill should be trained every day so then it will get improved. Before, I told myself to write about my experiences here (Ubon Ratchathani, Thailand) every day. By the way, I have been living in Thailand for almost three months but I just haven't touch my blog. I feel so tired after school (going home at 5, sometimes more than 5 pm) and still have to work for tomorrow so I broke my own saying. For now that I have already been awakened, I will try to write every day. I want to spend some time to write. I am still learning but I hope I can be consistent about this. Keep learning!